Thunk

So the job I'd like checked my references on Monday: its between me and one other candidate. Of course, now its Wednesday and I haven't heard anything so I'm becoming more sure by the day that they are not going to pick me. Damn but I want this job. It would mean a lot of good things: I'd get to do something I really like fairly frequently, rather than every-once-in-awhile-as-my-hectic- schedule-permits (teach), I'd be in a better living situation, a better pay situation, working more reasonable hours, within reach of a viable support system (family) and a greater number of resources. Please oh please oh please.
So last night I bough Ice Cream Of Despair and then checked the answering machine one last time: no job offers. So I had ice cream for dinner and then went running afterward. Its a bad idea, and I knew that, but I made it three miles and called it good. I came back to write down my patheticism and looked at the training calendar and I was supposed to have done 4 or 5 miles with 4 100-meter pick ups. Damn it. I guess I need to look at the calendar before I run (or eat crappy junk-food dinner). So I'll try and do that today.
I hope I get good news.