on the go-go-go

"I fear those big words, Stephen said, which make us so unhappy."
-- Taken from Joyce's Ulysses

Weather has gotten cold and is still rainy. I have to go back to PT today, and have not been doing the things I should have been doing, so will perhaps be rebuked and fear it. ugh. Its awful how we get in our own way so much of the time. I know what I need to do, I have the list and chart, and yet. Just like I know what I should be eating, what I should be avoiding, and yet. And yet.

I do so enjoy chocolate sometimes. And also lovely sugared things, things made with butter, things with no discernible nutritional value (hello ice cream, how are you?). Its sad how it happens, how we know the right way and our weak wills, our human foibles, stop us from achieving. Its enough to make you go to the gym, isn't it?
I hadn't been in ages, but I had to go and teach a yoga class last night. I moaned the whole way there--I didn't want to go, it was going to be terrible waaaaa waaaa waaaa. But it wasn't. It was infinitely better once I got there, and remembered that it is never bad, that it is really all things that are good. Once you get back in there it really does feel better. It comes back to you quickly, really. And you know that its going to be alright, after all.