on the go-go-go

"I fear those big words, Stephen said, which make us so unhappy."
-- Taken from Joyce's Ulysses

Weather has gotten cold and is still rainy. I have to go back to PT today, and have not been doing the things I should have been doing, so will perhaps be rebuked and fear it. ugh. Its awful how we get in our own way so much of the time. I know what I need to do, I have the list and chart, and yet. Just like I know what I should be eating, what I should be avoiding, and yet. And yet.

I do so enjoy chocolate sometimes. And also lovely sugared things, things made with butter, things with no discernible nutritional value (hello ice cream, how are you?). Its sad how it happens, how we know the right way and our weak wills, our human foibles, stop us from achieving. Its enough to make you go to the gym, isn't it?
I hadn't been in ages, but I had to go and teach a yoga class last night. I moaned the whole way there--I didn't want to go, it was going to be terrible waaaaa waaaa waaaa. But it wasn't. It was infinitely better once I got there, and remembered that it is never bad, that it is really all things that are good. Once you get back in there it really does feel better. It comes back to you quickly, really. And you know that its going to be alright, after all.

tell me another one. and make it good.

Oh my dear sweet Rumpelstiltskin. I am still full.
I did a little run on Thanksgiving morning, my proscribed two miles, and had big plans for gym visits and the like in the following days, but as holidays often go, other things happened. I did do a fair amount of walking around, on both Saturday and Sunday, but not nearly enough to make up for what I had to eat and drink over the course of the weekend. Oh my my my.
Its fun to have friends. Cool to have people to hang out with, fun things going on, plans to be included on. So wonderful to see people that I haven't seen in months, or weeks, or a couple of days anyway, its always nice to reconnect.
On the one hand. On the other, I spent way too much money hanging out with people I did and did not know, drinking beer, eating restaurant food and generally doing uncharacteristic cash-intensive things. And not running, or going to the gym. Ugh. It stands to reason that I haven't slept well for the past several nights (JLB and I in bed together, waking up every couple of hours to go "what?" "what?!" at each other and then doze back off temporarily. We are both in the same boat, I think, as far as sleeping patterns and exercise levels go: which is to say, not much lately). Perhaps it is not a "quick fix" I need , but I would like a fast fix, if you please. The plan: Get off my lazy ass. I'm on the late-night this evening (Ha! 8:30, they call that late!) I think the gym by my house doesn't close until 9:30...So its a start.
And then of course I have to go home and start my holiday baking. Hoo-rah.

Crush you down

Totally jiving on the Google Book Search. Its very very cool.
Went for a nice 20-minute run last night, just as it was getting dark. I took my laundry to the laundromat down the street (used the car for that, lot of laundry) threw it all in and then went for a run. I did a sort of square--went down the street for five minutes, took a left and went that way for another five minutes and then took another left and made my way back in the remaining ten minutes. I hope it was about 2 miles. Obviously I'm out of shape and practice, but we're working on that. Today its off to the gym after work: we've got thanksgiving dinner to earn, and muscles to make strong so that I can make my next visit to PT (next week) hopefully my last. Its not that I don't like Pt, but I hate having to pay for this guy to basically be mean and call me weak all the time. And thats probably not a fair description of what he does exactly, except that its always how I feel when I leave. The jerk. But my hips feel way better (part of that may just be the time off, but I'm not going to knock the guy's knowledge-ability) so something I'm doing must be alright.

perchance to dream

This sounds good, sort of. Well really, it appeals on the level that sometimes I have time getting up to go running early in the morning, and it would be nice not to have trouble. On the other hand, I am a girl who (when I can sleep) enjoys her Zs. I don't really know what would happen if the world didn't sleep any longer. Would every city turn into New York?
I'm heavy into Thanksgiving-mode. My youngest sister is coming down tonight, and either Wednesday or early Thursday we'll head up to my folks. There are so many fantastic recipes out there I can't even decide what I'm making. Something vegetarian, definitely, but Onions (or Onions)or Carrots or something with Eggplant? Difficult decisions! There is so much good food out there! Oh, to cook, perchance to eat!

turkey turkey turkey trott

I ran my first two miler on Friday night. It was sort of like a date.
I made plans and met a boy for running! it was so much fun: running+ sort of date = even better than just running, if you can believe it.
Its nice too, because I'm still trying to get back into it--not actively training for anything, not obsessed with split times or heart rate or distance, just sort of perusing far-off races and running two miles so it was a very talky two miles.
The new place that I'm living is about a half mile from the local running path--how much do I love that: it is a public area for running! Not as fancy-pants as the paths along the Charles down Boston way, but still pretty decent. Its a 3.5 or 4 mile loop--I haven't done the whole thing since I moved, given the whole PT-and Hip thing, but I am already excited about it. Oh yes. I should have gone again yesterday, but it was a very family-centric day, first the folks showed up for lunch and a reptile show and then the little sis and b-friend of little sis and I went adventuring into the wilds of central Maine (though we've discussed it and depending on where your from, Central Maine is in very different places. For us, Lewiston is in Central Maine. For people from Lewiston, Bangor is Central. Who knows what the people up in Ft Kent think. )
Thanksgiving is just around the corner. I keep sort of blanking on it, like --hey! its Monday and then oh yeah--on Thursday I have a big thing! Its Turkey Day! Except of course, I'm not real big on the bird eating, though I do love mashed potatoes and stuffing (made with vegetable broth! mmmmm!) as much as the next girl.
So happy happy. And away.

Mighty Moose

So, yeah, its been awhile.
I live in Maine now, I'm at the new job. (Its AWESOME! So awesome! Love it!)
The Marathon was a no-go for me: right after I moved I started having some really intense hip pain, resulting in PT, six weeks without running and with toddler-style weight room instruction, and now, today in fact, I am running my very first two miler. Very exciting step for me.
This morning was all wet and woolly out, but it seems to have cleared up, so I may get to go outdoors instead of inside on a treadmill--remains to be seen.
Today is also the end-of-season kickball party.
Yes, I played kickball. With the WAKAs. They're a bunch of insurance adjusters trying to position themselves as "kicky" and "original' but they don't know the meaning of the words, so its really pretty terrible. Like gym class in high school. There are some girls (femme insurance adjusters) who wear the short skirts (!?!I know) and have the right giggly tone, and then there are some boys who wear CLEATS and are all "Rrrrrrrrghgggg" all the time. And the rest of us drink cheap beer out of cans and wonder how in the hell we got talked into this.
But anyway, its over. The par-tay is supposed to be filled with free drinks, so I am going, at least for a little while.
And, yeah, I'm back, I think.
We'll talk about recovery some more soon.